writteninsteadPain is a strange thing
Full of lies, it will be
Painting stories of tragedy
you will learn to believe
Into the role, perfectly
Pushing at you, screaming
Crying. A disgusting mess of
Madness and grief
Sorry I let the poison of pain
Swallow me; I forgot to see
Every time I clawed at you,
You’ve only responded with love
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But baby, it’s so dark
Regardless day or night
Now I am in the waters
Regardless land or sea
And baby, you know I cannot swim!
I cannot breathe
I….
But baby, do not get me wrong
Loving you was the easiest
It was only hard
Because I loved you so
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I watch you sleep
And hold your hands
Kiss your moan
And cease your frown
I watch you sleep
And know that I can
not protect you
From yourself
I watch you sleep
And really wish I can
“I love you”
I can only hold your hands
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I am sorry
I am morning dew this
second; lava in the next
Drown you in love now
can’t look at you after
Too little
too much
Never in between
Please
know that I am stuck
in a dream. My reality
crumbles
reconstructs
Know that my love is
never gone; only at times
disguised,
tucked beneath the ugly
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If knowing will hurt you,
I’ll never have you find
The truth about my broken soul
I’ll have my cuts under sleeves
And tears flowing inwards
I will protect the whole of you
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You are broken
if you believe in that
But you can be diamond!
if you just shine through the cracks
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Go away,
Come back!
No, not so close
Closer…
I love you
Please love me too
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Maybe I won’t be able to sleep
From tonight onwards
Alone I would be
As how I was on every sleepless night
Alone I would be
Every night, from tonight
Did you know?
One is the loneliest when awake
Trying, yet
Unable to drift away
Even with your calm breathing next to me
Alone I would be, actually even more
Stuck in this reality
Unable to join you, and the rest of the world
In a parallel universe
Where everyday ends
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Is it love or anxiety
that took the air out of my ribs
taught my heart a mad dance
and has invisible hands that
embrace me at my neck?
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Leap off the cliff into mist of uncertainty I know it’ll be okay, it’ll be okay If it’s with you And whatever the future may bring I know it’s okay, it’s okay Because it’s with you Even if darkness finds me again I know I’m okay, I’m okay Because I’m with you