“Pain talks over other voices
Puts on a tint of dirt
How do you pay attention
With hissing in your ears?”
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Merry-go-round
I live life like in a sprint—
A lighted matchstick
Stuffed all of myself in every strike
I could not repeat anything twice
Each day, I become a little less
But dirty dishes and laundry ground me
They taught me that life is ongoing
(They taught me rest)
It is everyday; it is in the breath I take
No matter how sick or tired,
I’d draw in one more breath
So enjoy the ride
In this merry go round
Keeping alive is never wasted time
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Lay
Too bored to stay awake
Too dreadful to sleep
In the between, I lay
Endlessly.
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Balloon
I am a ball of helium
tied with a string —
stuck.
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Learned helplessness
You’d eventually learn
That it is a long, long time
To await for day break
You’d understand
Your consciousness is futile
As it is paralysing
Cruising the edge of
Insanity, blurring lines of
Dream and reality
The rhythm of blood
Pumping at your ears, mocking
The count down of eternity
You’d eventually believe
Trapped in a forever present
Like a dream you cannot awake — an irony
In this dream,
You are alone.
And alone, you will always be.
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Sunflower
I only wanted to be free
Live against the gravity
Infinite, the colour white — I am sunlight!
But if I am light
I cannot love the shadows
How can I fly? With half body heavy in soil
Each of them
Formed a vein and spread like roots
I am no sunlight, I am only a sunflower
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Chance
Does darkness deserve light?
Could the desert bloom?
Do I have a chance?
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Try
If I try,
could I be
happy?
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Act of pain
Pain is a strange thing
Full of lies, it will be
Painting stories of tragedy
you will learn to believe
Into the role, perfectly
Pushing at you, screaming
Crying. A disgusting mess of
Madness and grief
Sorry I let the poison of pain
Swallow me; I forgot to see
Every time I clawed at you,
You’ve only responded with love
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Protect you
I watch you sleep
And hold your hands
Kiss your moan
And cease your frown
I watch you sleep
And know that I can
not protect you
From yourself
I watch you sleep
And really wish I can
“I love you”
I can only hold your hands
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